As I look out at this wide open road ahead of me, I fear for the unknown. Two days from now I will set out on a 7 week journey to New York and onward to Europe. I embrace the challenges ahead and anticipate the incredible adventure that awaits me. Pushing ourselves through our fears is how we grow. Acknowledging the obstacles in front of us and overcoming them makes us stronger. I look forward to exploring further a part of the world that I love so much, seeing old friends and making new ones, expanding my mind with new cultures, and of course photographing everything I see. This is my summer of independence and freedom and I can't wait to live it.
As I realize that some drastic changes are about to happen in my life, this passage helps to calm my nerves, my fears, and my heartache; even if only a little bit.
Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don't even recognize that growth is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy or hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before. Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the Earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant. But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the personality is about to be revealed.